Light pushes between my eyelids, announcing a new day.
For a few seconds my eyes battle the morning, wanting more time to dream.
Ultimately, morning wins as it always does, and I blink away the remnants of rest. A small stretch follows, soft grunts escaping me. These are the songs of age that come with the years I’ve amassed.
That very same light bathes my sleeping wife, highlights and shadows playing upon the face I love so. It is serene, idyllic and beautiful—that face.
She is perfection in the dawn. So perfect that I dare not disturb that vision.
I slide my legs out from under the comforter, an exaggeratedly slow action of putting my feet to the floor and gradually raising my body off the bed. This goes much clumsier than I would have liked. A glance back reveals my lack of gracefulness hasn’t awoken her.
Steady and rhythmic breaths come and go—telltale signs slumber still has her under its spell.
Awkwardly, I tiptoe out of the room hoping that the carpet will mask my steps. The remainder of the way is pure hardwood, old and unforgiving, and unconcerned with my need for quiet.
My first tentative step elicits a creak and I freeze.
I look back to ensure my wife has not awoken. No break in her breathing gives me hope that my quest can continue.
I resume tip-toeing, navigating to the steps. The descent is a chorus of complaints from the wood, each step making their best effort to expose my secretive trek.
There’s no way of knowing if the floor has given me away, so I keep moving. I lightly step through the living and dining rooms and finally reach my destination: the kitchen.
My ritual can now begin in earnest.
I reach for the kettle to test its weight. It’s roughly a quarter full, so I migrate to the sink and fill it. When water finally reaches the rim, I shut off the faucet and return the kettle to its home. Switched on, the heater under the kettle coaxes the water to boil—a crucial element to the ritual.
I fetch two mugs, stoic receptacles awaiting their prize, and set them down next to the now-heating kettle. A small mason jar of sugar yields its contents to the mugs; one spoonful for her, two for me.
The ritual continues with final preparations. The French press now is pulled to the fore. A container of coffee offers its contents for use. Six level scoops are dropped into the French press and await the steaming water to rain down and release its potential.
The water reaches its penultimate boil, signaling the time to join the roiling water with the inert coffee grounds. I do just that and am rewarded with the smell of java and caffeine, a partnership of elementals that fill the air.
A spoon moves in circles in the press, creating miniature whirlpools of foam and coffee. I pull the spoon out, satisfied that union is complete. For a moment, I watch the eddies and swirls move about, fighting for supremacy.
I settle the lid on the press and gently push down. The key is to go slowly so no grounds find their way free. After what seems to be an interminable amount of time, the pressing is done, plunger at the bottom compressing the grounds.
Holding the lid and plunger in place, I pour the coffee into mugs which have been waiting patiently for its passenger.
I pour hers first. I always do, but I can’t say why. Hers I fill to the brim, or as near as can be.
Mine, I leave a bit of room for a splash of milk. My wife needs no such accompaniment. She prefers her coffee strong and stark; mine, not so much. Milk is poured into mine, and then both are stirred. Hers is a dark mocha; mine is caramel colored.
At last, the ritual is close to complete. Now for the final part of my stealthy journey: deliverance.
Across the hardwood I go again, trying and mostly failing to avoid parts that protest my weight. As I reach the steps, a smile escapes my lips. This happens each time I begin my ascent back to our bedroom. The smile of anticipation looking forward to that face I adore giving back its own smile, dreamy and struggling to remain before a yawn overtakes.
The steps groan just as loudly as they did when I first made my way down them for my morning ritual. I send a disapproving scowl at the wood, but it pays me no mind and continues to do what floors of its age do. Just a few more steps to the relative quiet of the rug floor of our bedroom.
Cautious steps carry me to the rug, wary of both noise and spillage. Now that I am back at the beginning, I bring the coffee to her side of the bed and set the mug down on her night stand. I touch her face, lightly caressing it, and just as lightly, I lean down and kiss her.
“Good morning, my love. I brought you coffee.”
The smile she gives is as lovely as I envisioned. It always is. And it is unfailingly worth it.
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Doug Zeigler is a husband, a father of four, a tech and video game geek. In his rare spare moments, he enjoys good books and even better beers, exploring new things, places and food with his wife. He also possesses a vast knowledge of 80s music that he hopes will pay off big at some random trivia night.